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2008-07-19T11:11:00.001+08:00

and people :) i am relocating to livejournal .

http://happyness-chase.livejournal.com

2008-07-19T11:10:00.001+08:00

i was just wondering

last night,J and i talked online as usual and you know what, it felt just like the last year.

oh wells irony

the truth is i still hold the three words true to my heart for you

and i now pronouce you husband and wife :)

2008-07-18T21:53:00.002+08:00

firstly congrats to my dearest sister May Yi and my brother-in law sean :) It was such a rushy day and i am so glad everything is over . Clinical lessons was so confusing cause miss Joan says one thing and miss jenny chew another, why cant the lectuers just come to a point where everyone has common points.sighs makes students life so miserable, then when we dont adhere to this particular lecturer's teaching style, students end up at a disadvantage. life and its bitchyness.

dad came to pick me up after that before we headed home to pick up caroline and mummy :) then we went down to wait for the bride and groom .May yi looked so pretty.the ceremony itself was quite fast , then we stayed behind to take peekchures and then we headed home. went to take a nap when i was back home and then we met sean's family for dinner at imperial treasure at taka :) the food was good .

in short, my day was great and awesome.tomorrow's meeting the project group to start and finish our FYP thats due on tuesday.next week's another busy week, with FYP deadline and second skills practical assessment and stimulated based lab learning which i will be involved.

and sunday's shape run :)))))) and the janet's sister angel's wedding.i am going with the girls.

and come monday, i am camping over at miss germs house to chiong FYP :(

there will be 3 night nurses and 1 evening nurse. can i be evening nurse ;)
my classmates are evil,when they heard i am gonna be one of the actress in SBL, she said omg comedy.lol. i seriously think i will end up making my class laugh like mad :(

and last night, i dreamt of J again, when i woke up .i couldnt help wondering why why why. i will never get answers and i dont want to know the reason.

lastly, thanks sean for the wonderful dinner.treat my sister well.

singfest, anyone.but tickets are freaking expensive :(

2008-07-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

day was quite bad :( i didnt start my day well at all.I had bad hair day , ohh man the moment i reached school, yan yan plaited my hair for me .presentation was bad also, me being last speaker i had to drag the time and make the presentation seem longer but still i missed a point.oh wells but miss cheah said our presentation was good :) clinical lab lesson was goood of course with miss Joan for 2 whole hours.after school, there was supposed to be another 2 hours of lab prac but miss Joan didnt stay so me and germs left around 6.30pm. i went down town to meet shuyu and rachel for dinner and to pass rach the cash for the wedding gift :) whilst i was having dinner at KFC , i started having sudden chest pain and epigastric pain which was quite bad for a few minutes .i was in so much pain, i just kept quiet .sighss i had a feeling it was heartburn, but then again i didnt really eat much what.sighhs i think i can only have KFC with caroline and not my friends. the last time i had this pain and experience was with babypie eating KFC also and that was after my blood donation .sighs.irony really. took bus back with pie and then i took 195 back .

i just took a really long bath and did 2 masks and 1 scrub and i am gonna go paint my nails soon.
tomorrow's gonna be a really rushy day.

2008-07-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

HS 3041 CLINICAL LAB 3B IS finally partly over , i still got one more practical assessment to go :( then no more clinical lessons . i seriously feel that time flies so fast, i am going to be a nursing graduate in no time.Today while mugging for the paper, we came across this group of students who were discussing about tepid sponging and when you see the excitment and hear the way they talk , you can they were year 1 students.lol tepid sponging's nothing compared to CPR, ETT suctioning and CVP monitoring.lol anyhows the theory paper was alright, just that i found a few mistakes here and there.rawrrr .studying session was goood,i was mugging with room mate love germaine and my clique :) miss Joan saw us outside the lecture theatre mugging and we decided to skip her gerontology lecture but she was still so nice to us . she will be one the few lecturers i will really miss .

yesterday during nursing project (FYP) presentation, felina's group presented on dietary habits in teenagers and adolescents.lol there was this slide on hargow and siewmai.

question: har gow and siew mai which one is healthier?

room mate love germaine is such a loyal siew mai fan and she insisted and was screaming away siew mai siew mai and i was laughing so hard, it was seriously such a classic moment.sometimes sinful stuff makes you live a life of denial so as to the enjoy the joy of indulging in it.lol

i finally met my girlfriends love :) we shopped together for my heels and tube top and had dinner together. thanks darlings.

2 more days till the ROM :) i am quite excited.Next week's another busy week again, with FYP project deadline and we might have to put our product and presentation up on display and nurse's day is coming,our class is gonna perform with miss Joan.how exciting.

2008-07-15T13:41:00.002+08:00

oh drats :( clinical exam's tomorrow and guess what i have only covered 15 pages out of 100 . i am so so so so so screwed just like my classmates. i need to have better time management .

okay i am sick of blogging.bye.

2008-07-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

year 3 nursing student's other half during clinical lessons = manual resuscitator

meet my always very sweet room mate and project mate group leader germaine kaelyn ong siqi :)

2008-07-14T18:53:00.003+08:00

school was great :) i got lucky today and i selected manual resuscitator function test instead of airway management and i actually finished it in 5 minutes and thankfully passed it. thanks for the well wishes people.

and my subgroup project group thought we had a presentation going on today but instead its supposed to be this thursday instead, so much for rushing it through hur hur. anyhows i got two more exams coming up next :( theory for clinical skills lab and there's a whole lot to cover and skills assessment part two. wish me luck
i met janet after school at TPY and then i took a bus back from TPY to town and then bused back. one hour of sleeping time for me :)

3 years have passed so so fast :(

2008-07-13T21:21:00.001+08:00

you know what i really hate myself for making that one mistake
damm

2008-07-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

oh right, i am gonna be at blogspot till i figure out how to use livejournal :( church was great even though i was feeling really sleepy. okays i need to go do up the minutes for tomorrow's presentation again and study for my clinical skills :)
i am feeling really crappy now and yet i dont know why ,sigh another one of those bitch fits day.

G , go read private :)

2008-07-12T23:03:00.001+08:00

happyness-chase.livejournal.com

2008-07-12T21:59:00.004+08:00

2008-07-12T21:44:00.004+08:00

the day was full of ups and down. i had a very bad miscommunication with a certain friend, and it went so so bad but i am glad now things are better for now. one thing learnt, never ever express whatever you feel through text messaging especially when your arguing ,everything ends up wrong.

anyhows dad's deparment ITSR had their family day cum farewell party for him today,it was great meeting his department people and talking to them and today i realised one fact about my dad i never knew. There were games, lucky draw, performances for dad, emotional video presentation about his working life for the past 20 years which i saw myself when i was much younger and mum's explosive permed hair HAHA, i swear i was laughing so badly when the first peekchure was shown.They got a cake for him .i came back home to nap after that and then went for dinner and now i am gonna mugg soon.

the next 2 weeks is gonna be really tough and rough and really rushing, like what i said so many things to do yet so little time.i am gonna meet germs and yan yan after service tomorrows to do up our projects. and next week's may yi's ROM ceremony already, i am quite excited about it but yet i realised i will miss that really naggy, irrittaing yet i am very thankful for a older sister like her at times.

dear God, thank you for blessing me with a wonderful incredible father who worked so hard through these years just for the family, who really is a shining light for you.

and thanks dad.

2008-07-12T00:30:00.003+08:00

i am going to keep my entries short from now on. school's fine, i am starting to cherish every single moment i have left with my classmates now. we only got four more weeks together as a class. i met B pie love after school and that one hour plus of project meeting, went down Nokia care, supposedly to repair my phone but it turned out to be $120 bucks quotation just to repair the keypad, so yea called dad and told him and he asked me not to repair it in the end, i am gonna get a new phone but i will wait till nov or december :) went to have cup noodles and bubble tea just like the old times with pie, we sat under the rain and not so huge umbrella, walked around far east and then we went mac cafe to mugg and then janet love came ,then we sent pie off to meet leisher and then i went off to meet girlfriend love michelle .walked around very aimlessly and we talked.

time so packed next week and tomorrow's dad's chalet. i have got 2 presentations plus theory exam and practical.

girlfriend told me this phone is pretty too : sony erikson G900, touch screen too but i still prefer HTC touch diamond

mug hard maysi :)

2008-07-10T22:17:00.003+08:00

i need to get a new phone : ( can hurry come then it will be 18 months since i have this horrible screwed phone , but seriously this phone brings back tons of memories.

i found 2 phones of my desire already but its really pricey. i need to learn to save :)

for the past two hours, i have been backing up the information in my phone. thank God for nokia's very user friendly savy accessories.phewww.

HTC Touch Diamond or Samsung Omnia

2008-07-10T15:32:00.002+08:00

my phone is screwed :( keypad very insensitve and the left and right navigation key and the back key is screwed :( i am thinking of bringing it down to Nokia care centre tomorrow after school even though my warranty has ended .oh well, and it just shut off on me.hahaha anyhows school's fine and i am supposed to meet friday homies tonight but then i need to rush FYP Project plus tons of ICA's due for the next few weeks.sighs.

so much things to do so little time.

last night i dreamt about HL, i think it was a sweet dream but yet it will never be true , hahs funny how dreams can make you smile.

2008-07-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

school was fine :) i love miss Joan's lessons. she's like one of the nicest lectures in school of health sciences, she makes lectures interesting and funny.after school, stayed back for a while to do project :) i laughed so much and yet was also controlling my anger.oh wells anyhows went down bugis with miss G love since she was free :) and then we had sushi and then met my girlfriend dearest janet :) we walked around cause i wanted to get a top :) i got my top and then janet and i sent G love off and then we walked around a while more before my legs finally surrendered, it was aching so badly, so we sat at starbucks and talked our time through, left close to 7.30pm :) bumped into virginia love on the way back and then my primary school friend lynn :) had a interesting talk with her and then home.

i am gonn do up my CVP notes now :) i feel so motivated to study.oh yea right. oh exam time table is out already and TTSH's Geron posting time schedule is out. omg i am down for afternoon shift on the dearest childhoodbesttie's birthday. how now brown cow, it will be impossible to change.sighhs.

anyhows first paper on 14 august and last paper on 21 august but they put the medical surgical modules one after another.oh wells wish me luck.

friday homies tomorrow :))

2008-07-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

all these were taken during nafa test (:

2008-07-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

I had only two hours of school today actually three but me and my clique decided to forgo the management and community health nursing one hour lecture and head to down instead. we went to wisma atria's food republic and we had teppanyaki :) as usual i had the beef selection which was super yummy and maureen darling got a shock cause i had it with chilli, close friends of mine who know me well would know i hate chilli and i dont really eat chilli unless its sambal chilli or tom yum or wasibi :) yupps i know i am wierd and very selective of food :( after that we walked around. peekchures will be up when felina sends me :)

i went off for my facial appointment after that :) facial today was good.i even met mummy there :) and i was texting darling girlfriend who's discharged already :) and after facial, i went back town and them met B pie love and then came back to my house area.hahahas

i saw HL look alike today .omg .lol

i love my b pie :)

okays i need to go do up my notes for clinical lab already *screams first assessment starts on monday cause my surname starts with a C .rawrrr and theory on wednesday .wish me luck
mug mugg mugg

2008-07-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

i am so glad nafa's test over :) my legs are feeling super tired and over stretched now and i realised a funny fact of mine i cant run on the track, i mean i hate running on the track , i prefer running on roads and pathways.dont laugh, my friends are like that too.i have to admit i am getting older and those 2 years of having no PE lessons , omg i almost died .stamina deproved so so much, now i miss secondary school .my legs are feeling so wobbly dobbly now, now i understand why J used to complain to me leg pain always and he will never fail to ask for a massage.remember that incident right after standard chartered marathon. he ran 42km and boy was i so proud of him.hahahas.oh wells, a year just passed by like that, but i will keep those memories.

after nafa, i wanted to make a trip down Mount E to visit girlfriend love but decided not to in the end. anyhows girlfriend's getting discharged tomorrow , so me happy girl now. The day in school didnt turn out that well, but i am glad everything's over. i love Miss Joan's lesson,she has this very adorable sense of humour which makes the class laugh and look forward to draggy clinical lessons.

i met B pie love for dinner over at her area and we talked. its been ages since we met up one on one and it felt like just the old times. i told her how i felt regarding some issues.we had long john and then we sat there and talked till i walked her back and then i decided to cab back.

oh great, i got a facial session tomorrow :(

hey love (: the road ahead will not be easy but know what we are always here for you. stay strong, i believe in you just like how you believed in me *huggggs*the missy is always here for you yea.

2008-07-07T09:50:00.003+08:00

something to make me smile for the rest of the day :)

girlfriend melly's getting discharged tomorrow , and i had a very happy sweet dream consisting of my girlfriends and J . i dreamt that they received salvation, i woke up smiling .

what a nice day :))

and next friday's my first sister's ROM.wheeee

2008-07-06T19:53:00.003+08:00

church was goood :) i went to help caroline with her storytelling today and then i went for service. today was one of those days that i felt so in tune with God ,i am convinced of one thing already but its kinda personal and i wont be telling anyone . anyhows after service, went to find caroline and then the family went for Mandai's yong tau foo.i love their yong tau foo :)) yummmy

after that i came home to take a nap, the headache came back again and this time round it was worse than before. i slept till around 5pm and then i finally popped a pandaol hoping it wil be better, it was a little better after that. tomorrow's nafa test, i am so so screwed especially for inclined pull ups !rawrrr but i believe my God will bring me through.

oh yea and caroline and i are going to take part in the Great eastern women's 10 km run again this year againn :) lol which means two runs with her this year.lol

J's online and we are talking. it feels just like the past. oh wells

2008-07-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

day was pretty much screwed and very busy :( i woke up in the morning and i finally finished watching my heart of greed final 3 episodes and then i went to prepare to leave the house to meet the rest :) i went down town with michelle and then met danica, lu ying, pammy and phy. we went to visit girlfriend dearest :) spent some time there then after which we left to meet pie . cheryl and mardi and then after that sat at spinelli till 7ish and then went back to the hospital before heading for dinner at food republic.

after that me,besttie love,michelle and kenneth went back toe hospital again before me and besttie left at 11pm :) cabbed back.

church tomorrows :)

J's online againn. i am feeling the pain.

its good to be a nurse

2008-07-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

last day of week 12 :( i was still having that horrible headache that was killing me very badly this morning and last night and as a result i slept at 10.30pm which is super early cause i am a late night bird.oh wells and my alarm only rang at 7.30am so yeahh i decided to skip gerontology's lecture . i reached school around 11 plus :) went comp lab and then next was clinical lesson. miss jenny chew is quite nice after all :) after that boring social psych lecture and then i decided to head home but halfway back had change of plans :( girlfriend melissa got hospitalised cause of suspected food poisoning . get well soon precious then we can go eat whatever you want kays and go shopping again. so i went down mount elizabeth to company her and she had lots of company and i concluded the working environment as compared to a goverment hospital is much more relaxing. you dont hear irritating consistent call bells and the nurses are so nice and once again i got mistaken as a relative of girlfriend.lol even auntie maureen was like laughing.after that i met rachel awhile, she made me smile with that anpanman toy :) yay .

i am going down again tomorrows :) all for my girlfriend love.

J's online now again but i dont know if we should talk.

2008-07-03T21:19:00.003+08:00

school's great though it was very draggy even though school only started at 11am this morning but it ended at 6pm luhh :( i was feeling so whiney and irritated the whole day, like what darling felina said,the day just didnt start up right.arghh and we ate so much today :( i feel so fat but then again i have been fasting breakfast , i think i should alternate the fasting of meals. I tried horrible korean junk foood :( conclusion made: packaging plays a big part in decision making of customers.

school's getting tougher day by day and in two weeks time it will be my final clinical practical : ( its gonna be real tough.

B pie love sent me this very nice song which she felt relates to me and J and i have to admit i really really miss J awhole lot.

the 23rd of august is coming , are you gonna make my wish come true.

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

2008-07-02T21:02:00.004+08:00

yours truely taken by my pie love (:

and i love my girls

germaine's super cute baby cousin :)

cervical collar :)

darling felina :)

darling maureen :)

feels like a accident scene!

room mate hunny love germs :)

school was great :) another new topic learnt for clinical practical . today's lesson was super interesting and interactive. we had miss Joan's lesson for 4 consecutive hours. wednesday's miss Joan's day. her lectures make me laugh like a mad cow :( and its super embarassing . i will let peekchures do the talking and after school i met my dearest girlfriends :) sorry janet for making you wait a little cause i was slightly late and i hada very good talk with my darling maureen ang :) its been ages since i talked to her one on one :) she's so silly , she wants to bake me a cake for my 21st again .time flies :) i am very thankful for maureen ang mei yun one of my first few friends that i approached during orientation.

went town :) went lucky plaza to get my bvalgari aqua perfume and then paragon's MUJI to get my pens :)) and then heeren and then cine :) and after that dinner at shukudo which i became very clumpsy and i spilled my ice milk macha and my black shorts and purple top and my precious abercrombie cardigan had the spillage :( went taka next and then met rachel :) went kino and i bought myself another book .

i love my girls :) yesterday i was talking to caroline about some particular topic and i asked randomly how are her friends and all ,and she told me something quite sad. her clique's like seperated cause of a particular issue concerning this guy. i mean if it never happens to my clique, i will probablly feel upset too. and she felt upset while watching SATC and she's amazed by how i will always make time for my friends no matter what. and you know what i love each and every single one of you that i meet every week and those that make friday nights awesome when i dont have cell .i hope me and my girls stay as close as ever. it takes trust and lots of care and concern to build up a friendship.

and i love that one person who always never fails to make me laugh and smile :) from being my primary one best buddy who never fails to bully me by taking my colour pencils, till being in the same secondary school and we never realised till later on and building up this awesome friendship by late night suppers, laughing and crying and withstanding my never ending whiny moments ( remember dempseys)

my childhooobesttie love.

2008-07-01T16:30:00.003+08:00

self declared holiday for today :) but the wierd thing is i woke up at 9am this morning and i couldnt get back to sleep there after. i thought alot about things and did a little packing and i caught 12 episodes of the heart of greed hong kogn drama serial which was very good:) hong kong drama serials especially those produced by TVB never fails to get me glued onto the sofa for like half the day :( the storyline is so interesting and its even better if you watch it in cantonese, the essence of the hong kong drama serial is there, the language they use is whooa :) so interesting. i am left with 10 episodes which i will catch soon when the last disc comes :)

anyhows i came across this yesterday in some magazine that campus crusade was giving out everywhere in school :) I am always greatly amazed at how God can love each and every single one of us and seriously this phrase kinda built me up .i have been struggling with isssues recently though i might not seem like it. issues with insecurities, with inferiorities and with lots of feeling of being unloved at times.i realised that at times i am everyone's happy pill, making my friends and those i love laugh , but who's going to make me happy at the end of the day. at times i just wish i had that one person that i wish i could run to , but i know God has greater plans for me.

anyhows for those who might feel discouraged and down at this moment. i hope this edifies you :)

i care for each and everyone of these millions that you can see, and so many more that you cannot see-just like i care for you. i know what your life will be like, the joys and the pain you will go through. i know how much you need to be loved amd i am here for you. trust me,let me love you

and i realised ...

his love was there all along- i just never quite understood it. he loves and accepts me, even with all my imperfections and insecurities. i cant understood why he does loves me so, when i truly dont deserve it , but he just does.some days, i must confess, i forget about him and get caught up in my unusual feelings of unwanted and unloved. but he always waits for me to remember i have him in my life and he's going nowhere.

he completes me .

no (: i am not talking about J or R or any other guy, but i am talking about that one person who will always love me, and that's Jesus.

2008-06-30T22:45:00.004+08:00

school's great as usual :) i thought i was going to be late and was planning on skipping community health's tutorial but in the end i managed to reach level 6 on time and i ran to the room so thankfully. did i mention the second installment of the growth bonus is here . two hundred bucks richer.wheeee! we learnt about central venous line insertion :( omg my heart goes out to the patients, its so painful luh even with local anaethesia given thankfully we only assist the doctors . i discovered the wonders of e buddy today :) like i totally didnt know it existed luh. and miss rachel came back already. she entertained me online today :)

oh yes we had a good time of laughter in school today. whilst we were waiting for our last lesson to start , we were sitting at the bench when we saw the ever famous Mdm wong walking towards us with her very famous discipline forms.lol i am so thankful i wore flats today instead of my usual birks and haviannas.lol seeing students all running away, hiding in toilets was hilarious.lol in the end 10 mins later she came out from the tutorial room and she finished giving out her forms.lol we concluded she has a quota to hit everyday , like to book 300 students for wearing slippers and improper attire.lol

and i finally finished reading the book that Janet passed me :) my best friend's girl which was very interesting.I have been reading alot next up, i am going to head down to kinokuniya and invest in another book.

i went down town with darl after school and we walked around far east before i headed home, as usual my darling shops whenever we end up together in town.hahahas

I had a talk with J online yesterday, sure felt wierd but nevertheless i was a happy girl though it was like a night of mixed emotions, only G will know how i feel but one thing stays i miss him but i am trying to move on .

we decided not to go for the NUH Mass casualty exercise already since i will be busy on that day and its like so early in the morning :( so yeah

i got so tired out after dinner , i took an hour rest :) and after that i caught the heart of greed dvd with the rents :) dad bought back the pirated version of the DVD and its in cantonese. its amazing how my parents can speak canto so well but their 3 daughter's cantonese speaking skills is whooaa speechless :(

caroline's sick :( get well soon and stop watching your dvds luhh!
and tomorrow's self declared day :) i need to get down to mugging , doing up my notes and packing my clothes cupboard againn and my study room which is in a big fat mess

i need to get rid of unwanted clothes and not stuff them back againn .

2008-06-29T17:35:00.002+08:00

church was good but it was a tad emotional day cause it was Pastor Peter Lui's last preaching to the congregation and he's gonna move on to another church after this week.Its been good old eleven years since he came into Bethel and he became a close family friend and breakfast buddy to my dad :) when the videos were showned, i couldnt help but control my tears , yes i am emotional that way. i bet dad feels upset as well but he's supressing it. as usual his sermon never fails to wake me up to my senses and once again i feel recharged. indeed God makes everything beautiful in his own time and its not up to us to question what's happening or what's gonna happen tomorrow but just to give our very best in whatever we do, this is something i find hard as a christian at times, having to live the life of a "christian in a wordly-filled place .

Lunch was over at the church area :) and then came home. caroline and me helped in moppping the house area and then we napped and i just woke up not long ago.

okays i need to rant a little over at my private reverie :)

Better than the riches of this world,
Better than the sound of my friends' voices,
Better than the biggest dreams of my heart,
and that's just the start

Better than getting what I say I need,
Better than living the life that I want to,
Better than the love that anyone could give,
your love is

And you hold me now in your arms and never let me go,
You are Lord in the sunshine, the moonlight in the night sky,
You give me breath and all your love,
i give my heart to you because

I can't stop falling in love with you,
I'll never stop falling in love with you.
I can't stop falling in love with you,
I'll never stop fallin' in love with you.

2008-06-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

lets see (: i spent most of my day online completing my clinical skills self written notes since everything is so messy and then i napped before meeting miss germs to supposedly discuss project but we ended up walking around harbourfront and vivocity. anyhows as usual , its was fun time spent and then we went to meet her momma and then i headed home . I waited for girlfriend dearest melissa to come down :) went for dinner at my house area and then we sat around talking and laughing.

i am talking to pts now who is irritating me as usual :( rawrr abigail yeo lu ying irrinoying thing !!

2008-06-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

school was fine as usual :) clinical lesson was very enjoyable though i was feeling really sleepy during lesson time and hungry :( after school, i went down town with germs,kart and lav for some sasa makeover thing and then we took peekchures :) after that i left them and went down to meet my dearest bimmy joanne :) went bugis street and shopped around for Hadley's present :) after walking for awhile, we got it . went to have dinner and then waited for samantha and then we trained down church for zone gathering.

zone gathering was fine and it was my first zone gathering ever in tietary zone but the feeling was awkward but soon alright. George shared on financial management and i got embarassed over some matters concerning dad .omg :( went home after that with the friday homies and shou zhen.

joanne's a compulsive shopper just like me :)
hahaha my longest childhood friend ever

we are called to be good stewards of what God entrusted to us.

i miss J :)

2008-06-26T21:29:00.003+08:00

school was great today :) miss Joan came back to take us for clinical lab lessons . we learnt about Endotracheal tube insertion today, omg its so tough and its going to be one of the skills tested for clinical lab. sighhs i can see myself getting stressed up soon. after school, i took the train with miss germs and then we went down raffles place to meet brannon cause they had cell while i was gonna head to meet childhoodbesttie .

i got my dress and leggings already, kinda dissapointed in my buys and its thr first time i feel this way. arghh sat at the bus stop and we talked and then awhile later i headed home. the rent's cell was over at my place to visit momma and guess who came along (: miss joanne he my dearest bimbotic cell leader that i love so much.hahahas she went down to get dinner with me. we talked about online shopping and eveything else. I brought up my dinner and then ate, bathed and now i am gonna do up my notes.

i am over at F's blog now, seems that things aint going well between her and J. confusion again.sighhs i dont want history to repeat its course again and hurt him once again as much as i miss him.

on a happier note (: things are fine between me and dad now but it sure felt wierd talking to him after that 18 hours of cold war we had and guess what me and G's gonna take part in the NUH Mass casualty exercise . hahs G's prolly be all bimbotic again as usual.

2008-06-25T21:14:00.002+08:00

my eyes are closing and shutting this very moment when i am typing this entry. i am getting very drained out already though school has just started. everything's piling up and doesnt help that my cramps are killing me and almost killed me today in school cause i actually felt fainting spells .

i just typed out some synopsis crap for my FYP and guess when i have to hand up my FYP in 3 weeks time, i can feel the tension everywhere. oh wells went plaza sing with felina after school cause i really need to take a breather and i didnt want to risk the chance of agitating my dad any further if i went home too early.

oh yea, i had a minor argument with my dad over a silly topic " closing of windows" i mean which parent and child would actually argue over this kinda small topic and end up having a very bad day. mine did, and it wasnt a simple scolding that i got. i was fighting back every single tear all the way till i told myself i really need to let it all go. everyone thinks i am a daddy's girl but do they know what actually happens when the happy go round gets malfunctioned. nahh no ones knows. i got quite affected and i slept with my blanket comforter and pillow faced down on my face and just cried and cried. its been ages since i actually broke down for that long. after which o woke up for dinner and then went down to get dinner . i went to find caroline and ranted a little. seriously i was really hurt when i heard some stuff but i guess humans do err . sometimes i really wish i had this special physical someone that i can run to any moment and just let it all go.

okays till then . much love

crazy night spent with lovely girls (:

2008-06-24T23:13:00.004+08:00

school (:

2008-06-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

2008-06-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

school was just great today :) we only had one lesson of management and community health nursing and then school ended , like wow, so germs, yan yan and i decided to head to 5th floor to look for miss cheah :)) thankfully she was there, so we did our individual viva voce presentation which i felt was a waste of time but we took peekchures with our cute miss cheah :)))

after that i went off to meet miss janet at toa pyoh then we went town. i had durian pancake today again :) yummy and then went to macs to eat while waiting for melissa. i got a shock of my life when i saw someone familiar :) i could only regonise jacintha and didnt realise daniel yam was standing infront of me . oh man i am getting old .hahs classic question : what am i doing in town again. i couldnt help laughing. melissa came and passed me irritating one's polariod cammy which i am supposed to pass to rach , rach came, went far east to buy films and then walked around then ashley(rach's brother) came , took some peekchures for us . he's super funny but a very good photographer. after that we walked to heeren , sat down wait for pie :) then went cine. pastamania for dinner and then after that we went to the top floor to take peekchures. we met this super nice guy working inside this shop and he took peekchures for us. poor him, cause it was like continuous and we played around with the props*i have bimbotic girlfriends but i love them all the same. it was nice making a new friend though.hahahas after that they rach and janet left and then me and pie went wisma :) then bused home.

and guess what childhoodbesttie dearest texted me today to tell me the dress is here, now i got to wait for my leggings but seriously no more shopping for the next whole month .

2008-06-23T12:19:00.005+08:00

first day back in school after 2 weeks of vacation break was goood :) it was good meeting my classmates once again sharing with each other stories on latest happenings. i wasnt late for school and i am very proud of that fact :) i am sure childhoodbesttie and girlfriends dearest would be proud to know of that too which means i didnt cab :)))

on a sad note, we held one minute of silence today during class to commemorate the passing of RX. some were crying,some were praying. i was praying a personal prayer during that one minute of silence. its been a week since he left everyone. i am sure his class is still trying to get a closure and i hope NR0629 will be strong no matter what happens from now. i have always admired their class spirit cause unlike my class , it's not as united as theirs ( and to me i think being in a class, you really need unity) but still i love my class

clinical lesson was interesting :) sometimes i have to admit clinical lesson can be quite interesting. Today we learnt about triage which is simply learning to assess,use your knowledge and intution(6 sense) to decide and classify which patients and cases are more severe and requires more medical help and immediate medical attention.

after school :) germs , maureen and i had a very intertesting talk over the matter of christianity and a topic which i dread most "accountability" but somehow the talk was quite interesting .we discussed our personal views and all. and then miss ang left for her babysitting and then germs and i proceeded to tiong barhu for durian pancake , i have been craving it since like 2 weeks ago .rawrrr anyhows went back home after that.

hey G dearest (: i just want to say whatever you decide, i will support you alrights but remember what i have told you today*hugggs*

tomorrow's meeting girlfriends dearest Rachel,janet and babypie love since Rach's flying off to HK on wednesday morning. i really miss travelling now.

okays, i am gonna go check out the online sites of those gyms now :)

a month ago it was J
now a month later its still J
i am still missing you

2008-06-22T21:44:00.005+08:00

i have a inner motivation to save money for now especially during attachment period in september all the way till january :)

the kate spade Chattanooga Carson Bag

it costs like US$142.50 on the ebay website and if you include shipping to singapore it would be around SS250 . i think its such a pretty bag though i would really want to own a chanel 2.55 classic black .

2008-06-22T17:31:00.002+08:00

Jesus You
You hold the world with your unfailing love
The heaven sings your praises from above
In Your name lips shall praise and knees shall bow

Father You
The universe exalts in who You are
The stars declare Your wonder far and wide
How majestic is Your love throughout my life

In You... I find my peace
in You... I bend my knees

You are Lord of heaven
You shall reign in all the earth
I humbly bow before Your majesty
Now I will sing Your praises and I will sing forevermore
I'm captivated by Your love in me

captivated by truewordshippers

2008-06-22T17:09:00.003+08:00

i got this dress from online blog shop tokyo bandits for may yi's upcoming ROM :) i think it looks classy rather than the plain old black and after much consultation and advice from my friends, i got the champagne one instead .

and i got my light grey step on leggings already and i bought a kimono dress from isetan :) and a black MNG black berms from the MNG sale which is super crowded.

thats like $127 bucks that blew off :( i am officially broke and i declare and admit i belong to the female species of addicted to shopping .

after church today :) may yi, caroline (may yin) and me shared a cab down town together, we dropped may yi off at sean's house since they were going for a bridal show later on and then caroline and i went taka and wisma's MNG :) the cab journey was super hilarious with the topic of the conversation being restaurants and wher serves good wedding banquets. i am very amazed by my two sister's information and all and the taxi's seat belts very faulty for the middle passenger and guess what, may yi and may yin became my seatbelts in the end .awww i have such sweet sisters, they held on to me with arms linked and made sure i was safe. very fruitful day before we went plaza sing for our late lunch :) and i saw darling maureen ang and keiffer .haha.

caroline blew $281 bucks at the MNG end of season sale and i love my sisters .

there's this bond that sisters share that no one will ever understand,10 years difference,7 years difference , it doesnt matter

eddee's on the newspaper today :) so cute .

2008-06-22T00:34:00.003+08:00

if there's one thing i really want for my birthday this year, that would be to meet up with this call whom i used to call her best friend in secondary school and because of certain misunderstandings we stopped talking totally and just a few minutes ago, i chanced upon her photo and she changed so much. my pretty babe jean who has always been hot and pretty to me has changed so much and boy i really miss those times we spent together during those 3 years together in the same class .

people called us the shorties and the very dark small ones
mr leslie loved to make fun of us
we always sat next to each other
we called each other almost every night
my first ride on the lrt was to her house
i still remember every single detail of her house

jean goh, if only you knew .

baby kaleb

2008-06-21T22:15:00.005+08:00

baby Kaleb was just one of the cutest thing ever and i realise all babies look alike like seriously.i mean if you put ten babies together in the same clothes, i think you wont be able to tell the difference .awww i miss KKH's Obstertrics ward :( i miss changing diapers, making formula milk,disinfecting milk bottles and carrying those cute little cuddley ones. anyhows i hope i become a real auntie soon as in once may yi settles down and start a family.I had fun catching up with my cousins, sharing with them stories and making new friends.

my uncle's God sis came and she's from FCBC and she said i look familair :) and seriously she looks familiar too but i just cant recall :( the foood was good but the company was the best .aww and baby kaleb is like so cute, the pictures are not with me but i will upload when i get it.haha and i had fun entertaining another young one, i call her little vivian, one year one little girl who's so chubby and very adorable just that she's very clingy, i played peekaboo with her, sang sunday school songs to her :) and she stopped crying, the aunties say that i have a way with kids.lol it comes with the nursing profession.lol and her mummy is one sweet looking lady .

school's starting and i have yet to edit my journal article yet and i just packed my bag and i regret not getting the bigger NUM bag now cause i realised its quite small afterall :( and i have yet to update my organiser and when school starts i am gonna get so screwed, so many things to do and next few month's packed real packed , i really dont know how am i going to survive prcp or rather me and my friends .arghh :(

2008-06-21T11:57:00.004+08:00

yesterday night was a blast :) the company that i had was just simply awesome and fabulous.I met the three very precious girls who understands me, loves me,shops with me, makes me laugh and cry at the same time and we simply talk our hearts out till the wee hours of the morning :)

after being a very nice little younger sister to caroline yesterday, we cabbed back and then i went home to change into shorts and tee and off i went to meet my girls :) went to lucky plaza to get perfume and i swear childhoodbesttie smells just like J even though they aint using the same perfume :( oh wells the memory lingers on no matter what happens.Afterwhich we went to paragon's soup spoon for dinner and without fail every single time i wont able to finish that 1 serving of mushroom straganoff soup :( and my two very adorable smart girlfriends even went to upgrade their meals luh :( lol and we didnt finish everything. after that we went shopping :) went to wisma's Gap and then cotton on and then forever 21 and then cotton on again and then as usual singapore has not much night life unlike Hong kong and thus we walked around aimlessly till we ended up at paragon's coffee bean :) we played zigity , they seemed to enjoy it so much, and we discussed birthday plans :) i so cant wait for my 21st birthday bash though the one person that i really hoped wil be there would be coming, but that person wont be turning up.oh wells we stayed at coffee bean till around 1.15am and then cabbed back. childhoodbesttie bullied me yet again,rahhhhh :( but i still love you all the same.

oh yea i bought the cotton on tunic that i got in black preciously in grey since my leggings is black :( and i want to get grey step ons and my black cotton on cardi .

i have alot going on my mind at this very moment , but i dont know how to start.

today's my baby nephew's 1st month celebration :))) i cant wait to see him and carry him.

2008-06-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

guess who's taking part in the shape run 2008 :)
yes me along with caroline chan may yin that bimbotic sister of mine

tomorrow i am going to be a very nice younger little sister and go down to caroline's school and help her with marking and filing . students these days are just so spoilt, since when did teachers have to do filing for their students :( and the night programme's spent with my three very lovely always loved by me girlfriends and childhoodbesttie dearest.

and my very precious pretty smart kick ass girlfriend janet lie's back from indonesia :))

and tomorrow i am gonna comb town's cotton on outlets and MNG end of season sale :)

the more i learn the more i love the more my heart cant get enough thats when i love you and i love you .

sentosa on a not so sunny weekday with germs :)

2008-06-19T14:26:00.003+08:00

i really miss J :(

2008-06-18T22:09:00.003+08:00

day was goood :) i went sentosa with miss germs before we met miss felina after that at plaza sing :) cotton on sales was goood stuff , i didnt manage to get my black cardigan though but i got another in purple since miss Felina says i should add more colours instead of black and grey so yeahh but i am still looking out at the other outlets :) and i bought a black and a green tunic top :) went bac vivo after that with miss felina to accompany her have her dinner before i headed home to meet dad's side of relatives for dinner, mum cooked too much today i almost died stuffing bee hoon into my small little stomach space :(

2008-06-17T21:14:00.003+08:00

today i realised that life is more than about having a boyfriend, being in the popular group in school, trying to be cool and lastly shopping for the latest apparrels trying to look pretty.i pondered upon the many numerous events that have been happening. one of them was RX, a a fellow lecture mate whom i was never close with but we would smile at each other every now and then when we are supposed to be together for attachments posting, i cant help but be affected to a certain extent.i know that being exposed to a healthcare environment, i ought not to be emotional and learn and realise the fact that death is a part and parcel of life and everyone will die, its just a matter of when. what happens when it happens to someone you know and just two weeks ago, you saw them and life just went as per normal then. i have to admit i am really shocked and pretty saddened by RX's passing. i feel for his parents, his classmates and his cca mates. all i ever knew was this ever passionate nursing student who strived to give his best for every patient even when he was posted to contact precautions area, something which i feel not everyone of us will be able to achieve.

life is seriously fragile, its at times when i read articles that reminds me of J and the worry starts again. i know that we aint together anylonger(*not that we were ) but i cant help but worry. but all i can is just pray an hope he's well.

i feel for the NS men who died while during training because of heatstroke, its at times like this i start to question God again, why are good promising people taken away within a single destructive event. i feel for clifton's girlfriend who is a very pretty babe i feel and his family.

i am meeting miss germs for sentosa tomorrow :) and then we are popping by town to meet miss F to get my cotton on cardi , my black one is giving way soon. and then i got a family dinner on in the night :(.

i am so excited to see my new baby nephew this weekend :) and of course dad's retiremen farewell party by his collegues :) *so sweet and he expects me to protect him.rahhh
and i really need to start mugging very soon :(

anyhows stay strong NR0629

2008-06-16T14:45:00.008+08:00

375km covered :)

car ride

ferry ride

lunch

theme dinner party

snorkelling

kayaking

beautiful rainbow

2008-06-16T14:07:00.003+08:00

its only three days i was away from singapore, and so much as happened . i am still at shock though he wasnt that close to me but somehow he still impacted me during our attachment times those days. rest in peace RX. i only just found out from germaine's blog. once again it dawned on me how life is just so fragile.

anyhows i am back from the annual toyota driveway that my family never fails to support every year or rather my parents :) anyhows the trip turned out well though the journey was like super tiring with a capital T and i seriously mean tiring. for the first time in my entire life i got car sick on the way back to singapore and sea sick on the way to tioman island . the scenery was beautiful and as usual it was great spending time with the familair faces year after year .I had m virgin snorkelling experience and it went all well and the sea creatures were very friendly though i couldnt get use to the different breathing in and out technique and thus i drank tons of sea water :( but the water was like crystal clear , even on the deck of the ferry you could see the sea creatures, how wonderful if singapore has this kinda natural environment. other than that, i will let peekchures do the talking :) and till then i am looking forward to next year's trip with the usuals :) and my next holiday trip would probablly by in september or october with the rents :)

2008-06-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

today's a good day, i managed to catch up on my sleep. camp for the past few days has really ruined my sleep cycle :( anyhows after having breakfast cum brunch, i started packing for tioman . oh yes i am leaving for tioman in like less than 12 hours time :) i am quite excited over my first ever snorkelling experience and trust me i think i am gonna be burnt by the time i get back to singapore. i kinda miss church camp now :(

anyhows in the afternooon, i went down to vivo to catch sex and the city with that second bimbotic sister of mine ;) i rate it 9 out of 10 , personally i feel its a chick flick that every girl should catch with their girlfriends and guess what sitting beside me were these two guys. so wierd omg.

after the movie (: we walked around. i got myself a new fbt singlet since i am running out of it :( and caroline got me my early birthday present. my NUM black bag :))) and guess what NUM was having this promotion where you spent 200 bucks, and you get another free NUM bag. i got the sling version since it was the only one left and caroline got a skirt :) and i concluded guys who work in NUM are himbos , like totally man. their service is like *_* .omg caroline and i were trying hard not to laugh seriously and i am a NUM member now :)) yay.

okays need to go update my mp3 playlist :) and charge camera.

today i realised i still miss J alot and that R is still the best but i am scared of the C word.

2008-06-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

bethel church camp 2008
8 june -11 june :))

camp was goood or rather very good :) Rev Ong was our camp speaker and he's a prophetic speaker and his preaching was really good. I am quite tired out for now cause we only reached back singapore at around 9pm thanks to the causeway jam but the seafood dinner we had at JB was worth it .i will talk about it based on day by day entries :)

sunday 8 june :)

we left home around 7.45pm and proceeded to malaysia. we met the Han family,uncle steven and family, uncle peter and family and another family at the petrol kiosk right after tuas checkpoint . Together 5 cars proceeded on the journey together. we drove to malacca for lunch.we had our lunch at the all time favourite teochew restaurant and thankfully we managed to get through the phone line after multiple tries,cause we needed to make advance booking. After lunch, we walked around malacca. oh man , i didnt bring my cammy, thus didnt take much photos. we proceeded on to the church camp venue at subang jaya Kuala Lumpur, we reached the hotel at around 5.30pm , did regristration then went for dinner and after that was camp orientation and then i went up to the parent's room to collect my bag cause my room key wasnt ready yet before that. After that was back to the room, bathed and then i slept all the way till the next morning, woke up at 6.20am for morning devotion with the friday homies.my room mate was this girl from region 2 young adult (caroline's friend) she was so quiet at first, i felt so awkward but the next day, we talked like friends.

monday 9 june :)

morning devotion with friday homies,had breakfast at the hotel which wasnt that bad and then had morning service session all the way till lunch time and after lunch wasd free and easy . we took the coach down to sunway prymid shopping centre, omg how much i missed that place and our favourite hotel. I went around shopping with the friday homies , shou zhen, laureen,regina,elizabeth and lyn chua:) had lunch at a&w which was super goood. singapore should just have a a&w outlet seriously. i bought two tops from FOS :) and then we bought dunkin donuts back :) after that was evening service and then dinner.after dinner , we went back to our rooms and then made plans to meet awhile later. we walked around the hotel exploring and took peekchures, and after awhile we got bored thus we went back to our rooms to bathe and made plans to meet at laureen's room . samantha came back to my room and i took my tolietries and towel and packed and went to her room to bathe and waited for her before we went laureen's room :) we played games, laughed at each other's silly mistakes ( like laureen's zigity pronounced as zi-ty and her super fun mrt game and her version of heart attack) omg i miss those girls now. we went back to our rooms around 1am and i stayed up to talk to shu rong (room mate).

tuesday 10 june :)

morning devotion with friday homies and sunday cell again :) then breakfast and morning session service and then lunch . after lunch it was youth meeting session. we had a intercession prayer meeting and then after that we went to cab down to sunway prymid shopping centre again cause sammy wanted to go. we walked around againn and then we met some bethelites adults and then they gave us a ride back to the hotel . we went back to the hotel room to change our shoes and then went for evening service. service was very good :) altar call was goood, the annointing and presence of God was so strong :))) went back to our rooms after service , bathed . i am so proud of myself, i bathed by myself in the hotel room, ther spirit of fear was like gone :)))))))) and then after that we went laureen's room, then changed to lyn's chua room and then played games againn.

wednesday 11 june :)

guess what, we overslept . i woke up at like 7.15am and then realised i was going to be late, washed up changed and then called shou zhen .i went down to joanne and hadley's room, omg those two sleepy heads were sleeping luh and guess what happened when i tried to wake them up and pull them out of bed. they put a pillow in the middle of the bed and then hadley told me this" you can sleep in the middle" and she went to off the lights after that*frowns* i went to switch on the tv and then waited for shou zhen and zeren to come over and we started to scream and i tickled the both of them till they woke up. went for breakfast and then had our last morning session and then in closing we had a prayer session where the youths prayed for ther adults and vice versa. had photo taking session and then went back to the room . omg i almosted died climbing 19 floors of steps (rahhh*bad part about staying in a executive suite) checked out and then waited for everyone and we went for lunch with the same people and then we had a stop over at baskin robbins which was very goood :)) ice cream makes me happy. we stopped over at jusco shopping centre :) stayed there for an hour and daddy bought me a topshop top :) love it. went for dinner at this seafood restaurant :) the food was very good and then we reached singapore at around 9pm.

tomorrow's gonna be another long day. i need to get more dri fit tops :( i am gonna go out with caroline chan may yin and then meet pie love for dinner. yay :))) friday's back to malaysia again , tioman trip this time . i cant wait to go snorkelling :))))))))))

i know J's happy now and i am happy too.

2008-06-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

i met my childhoodbesttie to chill out and talk just now :) as usual, she never fails to entertain me and happily she saw my parents :) and dad thought she was my boyfriend .HAHA i couldnt stop laughing. we sat at the coffee shop and just talked and laughed and then we walked around the pasar malam :) wahh she read's beatrice's blog too.HAHA i bought a rubik's cube since it was quite cheap and i needed entertainment . i will prove to childhoodbesttie that i can configure it.hehehe

came back home and started packing. i packed quite fast as compared to the previous times when i have to pack for camps and overseas trips since its church camp so mostly jeans and tee shirts luh, i dont want to freeze during service.

i cant wait for next saturday to come :) i am going snorkelling, a whole new experience*chilhoodbesttie say later see shark ahh*frowns . so mean right but nevermind i still love you

so yeah on hiatus till thursday then :)

the letter J :(

2008-06-07T12:52:00.002+08:00

its a saturday afternoon and i have yet to start packing for church camp and tioman trip yet :( i think tioman trip i will do it on wednesday evening when i am back :)

i just caught american idol on youtube, the part about idols give back , they sang shout to the lord, beautiful rendition of my all time favourite christian hym by hillsongs :) this is a sight that wont ever be in singapore cause of the diversity of the various religions.

forever i will love you
forever i will stand
nothing compares to the promise i have in you

okays off to meet childhoodbesttie and then back to start packing :))

2008-06-06T21:17:00.001+08:00

ambu bag

patient connector

reservoir valve

patient valve

intake valve

oxygen tubing

test lung

oropharyngeal airway

this is what is needed when patient collapses(stop breathing) :(

2008-06-06T21:05:00.002+08:00

school was one hell of a rollercoaster ride :( i felt irritated over some matters and doesnt help that my group and another subgroup has not presented our viva voce presentation yet and we got to come back down during the two weeks break to settle it .crappy isnt it :( secondly, i got a mini quarell with a particular classmate/friend of mine, i mean its nice to make fun of your friends at times, but i do have my limits too and today was one of those days i totally blew my top . i am sorry darlings but i really needed to vent it off

and doesnt help that my heart was in such a turmoil over a private missed call yet again, cause only a few of my friends would use private number and one of them is J :( all i really want is for him to be happy , even if it means that he gets back together with F, but seriously i dont want and dont wish for F to end up hurting him the second time round even though i know that if that happens, there's a slight chance and tendency that he might come back to me.

after school , i went down bugis *(yes again, for the 5th time in this whole week) and to the same place. darling got her high waist skirt and i got another plain black one cause once again she convinced me sucessfully to get it :( rahhhh then trained down to meet momma :) we walked around taka before heading to meritus mandarin for the toyota driveway 2008 briefing :) so yeahh saw alot of old familair faces .briefing was boring once again and i got emo, very emo cause all of J's favourite songs were playing :(which was bad very bad.

but i am quite hyped up for the trip :) cause there will be lots of water sports and we are going snorkelling .omg i so so so cant wait and water games and beach theme dinner party, a pity alexia girlfriend wont be going this year just like how i didnt go this year.rahhh

thanks germs for making me laugh*your the best room mate hunnie.

2008-06-06T11:06:00.003+08:00

venue : school computer lab :)

i have got one hour of break to kill before my next lesson which is clinical lab :) last night i only managed to turn in at like close to one thirty am and thats after having in between talks with caroline chan may yin :)

i have to admit i still care alot about what's going on as much as i am trying to move on .

your only the best i ever had :)

so exciting (: my holidays start from today . i so cant wait yet i am not looking forward to all the packing i have got to do tomorrow and next the unpacking and packing again on thursday :(

tonight's the toyota driveway briefing with the wheelsforfun at meritus mandarin, so prolley gonna head down to meet the rents there

oh yes and i bought my high waist skirt yesterday

2008-06-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

school was good :) coming back to the point which i skipped medical surgical lecture and tutorial cause firstly there was a misunderstanding and so i thought there wasnt 11am tutorial and thus overslept and going by distance theory i wont be able to rush in time, so yeahh skipped lecture to go library with miss germs and had a talk with my love :) cheer up babe *bigfatthuggg

clinical lab lesson was funny and entertaining :) i love my classmates . after school, we pigged out at the atrium fair where we had yoghurt and satay sasuage :( hahahas very sinful *feel the fats .rawrr. After that i met pie love at dhoby gaut, then we took a bus down to bugis :) i finally got my high waist skirt after 2 days of contemplation .i am seriously very very broke now, thank God one week of my 2 weeks holidays is gonna be spent in malaysia with family so yeahh no worries :)))

i just read F's blog and it pretty much surprises me how people think .oh wells i just hope she doesnt end up hurting him though my friends all tell me he deserves it and i deserve someone better and should just move on.

i love my pie very very much :)

2008-06-05T15:37:00.002+08:00

I guess school's fine :) i love my classmates especially my *clique , we do have our ups and downs though and its always over silly matters but we get over them real fast. seriously i am very thankful for this group of friends :) cause as compared to my secondary school friends who are studying in a poly now, they dont have friends that are that close as compared to me :)

clinical skill's assessment is coming up soon again :( and this module is sure tough learning about defib and all . oh wells i went for my facial session yesterday and i was so so sleepy i just conked out whenever she left me alone in the room. and guess what ,true yoga called again, another of my annon dearest friend nominated me for 1 week free trail session :)))

i am so not looking forward to packing for the trip tomorrow :( rahhhh

okays gotta go :) update more after i meet pie love laters

2008-06-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

school's goood :) though my legs were aching every now and then thanks to the past few days of yoga, but i quite like the idea of exercising now , but then i dont know how to bring up the subject of having a gym membership to my dad :( anyhows after school,we waited in school for an hour since miss felina had a group meeting thus me and germs went to the library and slept at one area.rahhh when i woke up , miss germs told me a group of cute guys was laughing at us or rather our direction :( this is bad and i woke up the find drool luh, but i remember covering my mouth. i headed to bugis area with felina and germaine :) we went to the library to drop off books first then went to get miss germ's and my long skirt :) finally found it, walked around then we headed to bugis junction, and then felina and i went down to amore fitness to meet the membership consultant . she's so so nice :) i like the service there.hmmms but how to convince dad :( i feel so so so so fat , i dont wanna regret till i get high blood pressure or stroke next time. i am so scared i will get a heart attack or even diabetes :(

felina and i went for dinner at KFC then my darling girlfriends janet and rachel came :))))) love those two babes of mine.afterwhich fel went for babysitting while me and my two girls walked around bugis :) i didnt get anything after that :) i am so so proud of myself though i almost spent :) since it was early like around 7pm, rach suggested heading down town :) so we took a very crowded bus down where i met this super nice old lady :) we walked around far east plaza where i saw the prettiest electric blue dress ever :( 169 bucks for that dress.sighhs and a chanel 255 classic black inspired bag ,139 bucks :( sighhs and we saw shutter shades and i almost bought it :( but i have like millions of shades so nah no i didnt get it

my grey dress from ruth's blog shop lyla&rose is here :) thats one thing to make me happy but i am so not looking forward to all the packing that i have to do for 2 separate getaways.

i miss J :( ,its just not the same anymore.

anyhows i met a fellow ex boyfriend who's training to be a doctor currently recently that day at harbourfront while doing project,and its funny how much your ex boyfriends will always be the one who understands you most.

2008-06-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

i set up a new private blog and its exclusiely private this time round :) pie's the sweetest ever once again though at times she does really get on my nerves at times but she's so silly and adorable like now she is :)

anyhows miss doris chan made my day today :) i am going to be posted to NUH for A&E and OT :) but i hope she makes lavina a happy girl too , so i can work with miss germs :) caroline's back but i have yet to talk to her :(

after school, me , maureen and fel love went down town for our HOT Yoga lesson, omg the stretching almost killed today but it was goood :) i like today's lesson and it was by the same instructor.I bumped into petrina and kennard :) since i was the one who write their names down on the VIP list.went for dinner at far east next, bumped into pretty clara chai :) walked around and then we went taka for groceries shopping and in hope of durian pancake but it was closed already thus we had ice cream instead, black sesame and lychee :)) yummy and my two girlfriends make me laugh all day long. one's so bimbotic, that she's hopeless at remembering buildings , and the other is so so cute.

felina asked maureen :where's paragon when we were at takashimaya walking towards heeren, maureen: i dont know.
felina: its across the road
me : started educating her on all the buildings

haiyo darling ahh :(

2008-06-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

2008-06-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

church was good but last night was bad cause i couldnt fall asleep though my eyes were like closing every minute and within the next minute i was tossing here and there :(

met felina and maureen just now after service :) the very nice first sister gave me a lift down far east plaza since she's going sean's house. I went to heeren to pick miss maureen ang up :) then we walked to pacific plaza for our power yoga lesson :) omg my bones are aching so badly and everyone's so flexible except us :( i couldnt help laughing today though ,we went to the steam bath :))

i am considering joining amore fitness as compared to True Yoga cause may yi says amore is better :) and there are classes too :)

walked around with maureen love then home :( i am sleepy gonna nap soon.

tomorrow's Hot yoga lesson and also our final free trail lesson :)

i miss J more than ever :(

2008-05-31T23:05:00.003+08:00

i met miss germs in the evening to chiong project again :( my saturdays are filled with meeting miss germs these days but whatever it is i still love her.We went harbourfront macs and we sat there from 5 till like 8 plus :( oreo mcflurry is love and i had fun ganging up with her friend simon online disturbing miss germs and miss germs just kept poking me today. Miss felina lee came down for awhile :) and i am seeing her and maureen darl tomorrows after service.

CAROLINE'S COMING BACK TOMORRROW :) and the world is so so small . Mr eric wong was germ's BS teacher. oh wells life is such a concidence.

its been the longest 2 weeks ever
J oh J

cheer up pie love

2008-05-31T12:51:00.003+08:00

omg my two dearest darlings in school woke me up this morning, first was 3 miss calls and i didnt pick up obviously since i was sleeping and then next came the very persistent home phone call :( omg i was so irritated obviously so i went out of the bedroom without even swicthing off the aircon and answerd the call in a very whiney sleepy voice.rahhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

meeting them tomorrows after church :) and laters is project meeting with hunnie room mate love germs :) miss F is joining us for a little while :) and i am gonna use caroline's lappy :)))

i miss caroline. thank God she's coming back tomorrow :) and next week this time i will be in malaysia already :(

its been my longest two weeks ever :( J oh J

2008-05-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

school was great :) and i reached school on time for 9am lecture, i felt so proud and accomplished of myself :) i swear i got thee cutest father ever,he asked if i was very busy today, i replied yes since i had my day filled today, then he asked if i am free to accompany him go NUS attend business management lecture on performance appriasal and customer service :( omg i hate that topic seriouly, if you do recall, it was my ICA topic. so me being very concerned and curious, i asked if he's going to attend a lecture or what, nah but he's going there to watch and supervise and do a performance apprasial on his surbourdinate.omg my dad's mad luh :( though i love business and my dream is to take a business degree :)

after school :) towned with my 2 darlings(felina and maureen) had food republic where we pigged out again and then walked around almost everywhere, my legs were dying, then we went pacfic plaza. i dislike going that place for a reason, anyhows we went for our lesson :) it wasn that bad as i thought. oh wells we will see how

after that we sent felina off to wisma and then ate our dinner with her before we went back for our second lesson.my abs are aching big time now :( its worse than running i feel but it was quite alright. after the lesson, darling and i decided to shower, and then we went off to far east to meet darl's pretty friend carmen :) she's sucha hottie i swear, then bused home.

i started missing J a whole lot today :( and the feeling was really really bad . i really miss him

2008-05-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

school's great ! though my tummy was killing me early in the morning thus i gave group meeting a miss. sorry germs :(

today was our last clinical laboratory for HS3054 and it was taken by mr benard lian, as usual he made us laugh like one's business and he kept psychoing us to take part in SHS debates and i have very funny friends who kept sabotaging each other including me , if the topic's about shopping and eyecandies, i dont mind :)) ehh but me no bimbo okays

and we are starting on another few new modules next week.i can forsee alot of mugging coming my way during the holidays , even though half the time i will be away in Malaysia . i miss caroline that bimbotic sister love of mine, i feel wierd having no one to rant to when i am home and its feels wierd having no one to irritate me.

the clique pigged out so much during our 1 hour break and thus we had 5 packets of potato wedges from South canteen(engineering and IT block), they have good food i realise, lucky guys

after school :) maureen and i went on our little adventure. she needed someone to accompany her down town to settle some matters, thus i went with her since its only for a little while.

tomorrow's out with the school clique :)

thanks germs for everything :) your seriously one super sweet friend to have. much love :) i will climb mountains and cross rivers for you too room mate hunnie sweets.

and did i mention i have very silly girlfriends who miscall me in the middle of the night , just to tell me something funny.lol yes michelle and melissa love :) my precious 8 years of love .

guess what mr eric wong (stcmb's ex band instructor) is in superband semi finals contest along with his younger brother and careen (eric wong's wife) i really miss stcmb moments then. it's like so so fun with seniors like bao yan,jie ying,alicia,ling yu, charise. i love band .

2008-05-29T00:09:00.004+08:00

anyhows i gave up keeping everything to myself and i finally you all how i am feeling and all :) anyhows i do feel alot better now, at least i dont have to pretend i am fine with whatever's going on

school was boring except for the Navy career talk that we decided to attend :) clinical lab lessons,we watched this physical examination of the ENT :) interesting.

sometimes i dont even know why am i in nursing, isit to prove others wrong or do i really love nursing. i am still trying to find the answer.

meeting the friday homies was good :) i had fun with them laughing, babercueing,camwhoring, trying to take ages to start the fire and babysitting damien literally, half the time i was taking care of damien, our little adorable rascal :) but i love him so cute yet naughty . i love my cell group, i really do :))) girl power seriously and it feels like family.

so cute luh my friday homies, when damien needede to go to the toliet, they told me to bring him there , :( HAHA but it was fun.

underwater combat medic :(

2008-05-28T08:41:00.002+08:00

its been a week :( I havent felt this way for almost 2 years already and the feeling hasn't set in.It wasnt that bad with R, at least i felt i could move on better, not that i had lesser feelings for R or whatsoever, but it's just different, dont ask me why but its just different.

miss smarty pants nurse here forgot about this morning's 9am tutorial when so many people actually reminded her and i woke up at 8am,rahhh so decided to skip the first lesson which is social psychology tutorial.

its going to be a long long long day :( and caroline went off to Thailand for her school trip already and i really hope those little rascals of hers (*students) will be have themselves. I had a hard time helping her pack yesterday, she brought almost everything.omg :( and next week's my turn to pack for church camp and then Tioman :(

i need a break really :)meeting friday homies later in the evening.

but before that more mugging for presentations next week this weekend

2008-05-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

school's boring with a capital B :( yesterday i complained about management tutorial but today 's management was also just as bad , omg we learnt about the process of change and the different forms of change. seriously year 3 modules are :(

i am thinking of skipping school on friday since its only 2 lectures :( caroline's leaving for her thailand school trip tomorrows and will be back only on sunday,which means i will be stuck with may yi :(( rahhhhh lets hope everything will be fine.

and darling maureen is so silly :( she wrote me a lovely cute silly testimonial making me crack up. hah she misses the soft spoken, innocent and blur me , which sounds so like me in year 1 luh :) i love you darl.

over the years i have learnt how complicated the world can be
and i got this from E's blog :) interesting

People are often unreasonable, illogical and sef-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you're kind, people may accuse you of having selfish ulterior moltives;
Be kind anyway.I

f you're successful, you'll win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you're honest and frank, People may cheat you;
Be Honest and Frank anyway.

What you spent years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, People will often forget tommorrow;
Do good anyway

Give the world the best you have, and it may never seem enough;
Give the world the best you have anyway.

It is between you and god;
It was never between you and them anyway

2008-05-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

OMG MANAGEMENT MODULE ICA IS FINALLY OVER :) NEXT UP WILL BE COMMUNITY HEALTH :)))) but i have only three words to sum up management module , which is total waste of time , and i feel so much like a business student rather than a nursing student, seriously nursing = everything you also need to know, from bio to statistics to reading ECG to customer service &performance management. omg finally ica is over :) but however we had this very wierd inquisive lecturer who just kept going on and on , this was what happened. Let's call her Miss L

ask questions like, if you are in a service industry, do you think it's necessary for foreign employees to go through english proficiency test to improve customer service, do you think they need to know at least 1 mother tongue, what about in the hospital settings? do you think the employers or the employees should pay for the extra language lessons they are going to take? yadda yadda yadda.

so germaine and i answered for my group. i said that perharps the employers should pay half and then the employees pay half, afterall learning is part of your own and you should be responsible cause through learning, you gain another advantage.i almost died arguing with her, in the end i gave up and we just nodded our heads to whatever she said. she's so so wierd.

and then she went on and on about her achievements blah blah.from degree to master's in nursing, how much she sacrifice for NYP and how much the students adore her. she's been teaching for 15 years and she's going to receive some award this week. omg

clinical lab was alright :) i miss miss irene lee :)))) she's back cause miss joan is out on clinical for advanced diploma students . after tutorial, i went down to meet caroline chan may yin that bimbotic sister of mine . omg and guess what i waited for an hour plus cause i was early, so i just sat at far east bus stop people watching is quite fun actually :) and then my phone died on me thus i was searching frantically for a public phone, finally managed to contact her. walked around got her manhanttan portage bag, she rather get me a manhatthan portage bag than a NUM bag luh :( but in the end i managed to convince her cause of big bag's advanatges especially during attachment period :))) went to cine's shoduku for dinner with her and weijie :) then went NUM to get my bag but then the shops were closed already, so i will get it when she comes back from her thailand school trip. love my sister :) shopping runs in my family i swear.

yay NUM black bag soon :)

i am gona head to bed soon :) eyes dying. i will never wear my monthly lenses to sentosa again. my lenses had sand remains and thus it made my eyes senstive again. rahhhhh

on a happier note :) lav darling is gonna switch with me for OT and A&E posting so i am going NUH hopefully doris allows *crossfingersamdtoes :)))

2008-05-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

i promise myself that i wont question God but watching video slides on the earthquake hearing about the death toll rising each and every single minute just makes me wonder, like how can God let this happen if he loves his people, this is question that's placed within me ever since i was a sunday school kid bit i didnt think much but as you grow older you try to seek answers to those questions that no one can answer you. we are not talking about hundreds of lives lost but million and thousands missing.watching the charity show , i was trying to control my tears, but my heart aches upon thinking how many families have lost their one and only child, their only glimpse of hope and how many children have lost their parents just over the day.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/349922/1/.html

i am still trying to seek out my calling in God's kingdom but lately i have been thinking alot.

i am sorry for all these thought evoking entries but i just need to voice out my thoughts.

2008-05-25T18:09:00.003+08:00

church was good today as usual :) seriously i thank God for a wonderful God who loves me just the way i am, so much so i feel so free in his presence. preaching was by our counterpart Grace assembly of God church speaker pastor richard wee, his preaching and sermon was so dynamic, he spoke so loud, its impossible for anyone to fall asleep, R had to agree with me on that , but the sermon topic was very relevant to everyone, the harvest is ripe, but yet how many christians are willing to tell God , yes i am ready. i am very guilty of that, many times God spoke i ignored and gave in to my fears, delaying it time after time , but how much we know of the fact that we are temporal in this earth yet we still hang on to the things that's temporal like relationships, money and things we deem as more important than the service of God (reaching out to lost souls) etc. I have realised how fragile life can be, working as a healthcare professional facing the sick, the depressed , the isolated. seriously God gives, yet God can take away. Lately, i have been more than convinced of the fact that the world is ending soon and the second coming is drawing nearer each and everyday, like what some people say in year 2012, but as a christian i have been taught that God can come anytime and we dont know just when. i felt a tugging on my heartstring when the pastor preached today,regarding reaching out to the lost out there. The world has recently suffered two major setbacks,mainly the Myanmar cyclone incident and the Sichuan earthquake, everyday there are people dying.life is so so fragile.

lunch was with caroline alone cause the rents had plans to lunch with uncle steven ting and his wife, so me and caroline headed off to macs for lunch :) we ordered two happy meals :))) sat around, bummed around, walked around next .

yay :) i managed to convince caroline to lend me her Hogla camera :) but i will replace the films like duhh. online retail therapy is bad , i just bought a grey dress but its pretty and my victoria secret's dress is OOS :(( sighhs

and they are having a hogla spree :( i am trying to convince myself reasons why i shouldnt get a hogla myself and just share with caroline .sighhs

i really miss J but i have learnt not to hate but love unconditonally instead though its hard and i struggle everyday just thinking about everything that reminds me of him that has happened but i know God made everything happen for a reason .

every heartbeat for your glory, take me lord

okay back to struggling on project :( screw communication

sorry for the very very wordy entry,but i am in thinking and writing mode .

2008-05-24T23:38:00.004+08:00

at han's with germs that day :)

project's driving me mad. yesterday night i stayed up to type and read through the reference book we borrowed back. Today i woke up close to noon time and then went to buy lunch for caroline and myself*i am sucha nice little sister :)) in the evening, i met room mate love germaine at vivocity to do project :( this time our topic was about mainly customer service and performance managment. i feel like i am in business course please, what does nursing have to do with performance appraisal and etc, and the project case study is about us being a nurse manager handling tough situations , omg :(

we went starbucks quiet corner and started brain storming and folding the pages of the reference books and then we proceeded for dinner at food republic , as usual we talked and talked and then got our butts down to harbourfront's macs and thats where we were for the next 4 hours :( i hate management module, such a total waste of time. rahhhhh her friend came to join us and i concluded i hate laptops , especially those without mouse :( rahhhhh and this is not the first time i concluded i hate mouse. i once told someone before and he happily told me no need mouse luh, beside me got one whiney mouse :( nevertheless i love my room mate love and that particular someone.

oh ya more of project tomorrows evening :( meeting germs again.

its been 3 days since i decided to move on officially and try not to look back, but sometimes i feel its so so hard especially when there's something to remind me of you about everyday. from my carpark to macdonalds, to starbucks cause you love starbucks to almost everything but i know your happy and that keeps me going everyday.

october
novenber
december
january
february
march
april
i was the happiest girl ever :)

2008-05-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

Its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.

i am considering switching and moving over to wordpress cause i am lazy to blog and write down at my private blog at times and with wordpress, i can password protect my entries at times.

meeting room mate love laters :) chiong project which we are so screwed and i havent even started on my individual journal presentation preparation and i am number thirteen-th to present.

pie's making me worried cause she's still sick : (

2008-05-23T21:07:00.001+08:00

2008-05-23T20:57:00.002+08:00

school was pretty alright . i wasnt really happy nor really upset but thankfully i had germaine with me for practically the whole day :) i skipped lunch today and then went to library to do work for project and me and germs can actually replay the same song over and over again for dont know how many times * thats how much i love my bimbo, cause she understands me and never fails to lift me up.

tomorrow's the weekend but i am gonna be busy rushing project :( meeting her at vivo tomorrow to do project .

here's my favourite song though it's quite a sad song but i think i relate well to it and i actually got this song from eyecandy eddee's blog .

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that we'll never play, allThe broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, theyCan take the future that we'll never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

2008-05-22T17:27:00.004+08:00

oh ya :) now that i feel alot better i am going to talk about sentosa yesterday . Tanning was good, Mr sun didnt let me down and that was the first thing to make me smile yesterday.

the girlfriends and i arranged to meet at 10am but as usual we always end up late thus we only reached sentosa at like around 11 plus :) michelle was being very whiney and bimbotic yesterday. i heard her repeat this particular sentence for like 10 over times yesterday(*i didnt count though but it should be that many times).

MICHELLE'S FAVOURITE SENTENCE: SO HOT SO STICKY TO MANY FLIES

we could be sitting and lying down tanning and she would sit for less than 5-10 mins and then start complaining to me and melissa . this happened so often that i couldnt help laughing whenever she was about to stand up. Normally I would only bring 3 beach mats, one for our bags and food and another two for us to lie down :) in the end she used the one meant for my bag cause they hanged their bag in the shade*eh my bag's precious, thus i wont hang it .

in the end i ended up being the tannest as usual, but i like to look tanned but sadly i am not toned.it's a good thing to head to sentosa on a weekday rather than a weekend so much quieter and there isnt any toilet queue. We headed to town after that :) went to cine's hong kong cafe, for some reason my stomach was aching thus i didnt finish the beef steak spaghetti and hong kong iced milk tea. michelle left to meet and find kenneth cause he becamr mr sick, thats for bullying me too often :))) and then mel and i continued to walk around. we went to taka and the two isetans. i bought a agnès b. key and lock necklace for like 55 bucks :( impulse buy cause i wasnt feeling too happy then , but i love it now.I am in love with the longchamp look-alike bag from agnès b. anyhows we went far east after that and then home. Bus journey home wasnt a very good one and subsequenly the night that followed but i am very thankfully for my wonderful friends who came to find me,call me, text me to make sure i was alright.

i have still got things on my mind now, like how to convince doris to allow me to transfer to NUH for my OT and A&E posting cause she posted me to CGH for that and dad's aint really happy, yeah to my friends i might be pampered but every dad wants their child to be healthy and happy what.i fall sick easily if i dont have enough rest .

i am feeling alot better now. i know whatever happens, God's in control.what's meant to be will be and God has his reasons but one thing's for sure it sure hurts but with hurts brings ending and new beginings.

i find a smile when i know that you will be truely happy from now on.

did i mention how much i love polariod peekchures :)

better in time ;

2008-05-22T09:47:00.004+08:00

HIATUS TILL I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING AGAINN

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that we'll never play. All the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we'll never know, they can take the places that we said we would go. All the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

yesterday = memories

future= hopes and happyness and wishes that you will be happy whatever happens

i will try not to seek the answers to my million questions any longer. i will no longer fight but i will take flight.everyone's telling me not to fake the smile i put on but i just cant seem to find and understand the feeling i am having now.its a mixture of bitterness yet happyness for you cause i know right now your happy.as cliche as it sound, if you love someone let go cause the person will be happier.i fell bad and real deep but i have never regretted though i should have regretted .its better to have loved than not have at all.

it will all get better in time.

yes it will all get better in time.

Let go your sadness, Give up the fight.Follow your madness and take flight... take flight.

million questions running through my head-i wanna run and never come back

2008-05-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

i have got a million and one questions and things going through my mind now. i dont know how i am supposed to feel after what has happened, but everything's happening too fast and today i realised the true hard fact that dreams dont come true afterall . i have got a million and one questions going through my head now . i really need a break . i met my friend . she came down. i ranted it out and no i didnt feel any better and i didnt cry it all out but here i am now with this question why did this happen to me .everyone's telling me you will be fine, it takes time to heal a wound. why dont you tell _____ how you feel . whats the point. you wont come back wont you.i hate you

why you why you why you why you why you why you
why her why her why her why her

hate yet love :(

the letter J

2008-05-20T21:57:00.003+08:00

school was boring today with two sociology lectures by two different lecturers but they tried making us laugh alittle luh :) after lecture and also school, bimbotic miss germs decided to cancel the group meeting and then we headed for our little shopping spree, first time i go town most of the shops aint open yet :( so we walked around alittle. from far east to tangs(*some bimbo made me walk into the entrance direction there and then ask me why are we walking there :)) totally bimbotic scene , we went to get our durian pancake from takashimaya's basement and then walked around taka, wisma and then back to far east plaza :) i got my brown bikini from sheer romance and myself a new johnson inspired shorts :)) retail therapy is really a girl's best friend, it was fun walking around, talking about certain issues to that bimbo :) and eating with her is super fun . we sat at HANS :) went to look for carmel and then went to meet pie love :)

pie love and i decided to head back to my house area cause she was sick :( rahhh got me so worried. i made us a ice pack ,hoping that the fever would reduce but then seems that it didnt work and miss smarty pants didnt want to take any medication :( rahhh anyhows she stayed and she defintely entertained me and my mom and my dad surprisingly and daddy actually thought she was michelle ( mel's sis) *faints*

tomorrow's self declared no school day for missy chan :) since its only one lecture and besides the fact that i rather head to sentosa for a tann and to spend time with my girlfriends :)))))))

thursday's e learning day :)

i am starting to anticipate prcp days coming :) like 3 more months or so . that's how much time i have left with my class :((((((((( i am so gonna miss NR0627 .

get well soon pie love :)

i miss you little small eyes .

2008-05-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

I spent my holiday with my rents and dad's side of relatives and then i caught like 16 out of 20 episodes of the hong kong drama serial 舞动全城 starring bernice liu and steven ma . I rate it nine out of ten :) Hong kong drama serial always makes me smile :)

tomorrow's a long long day in school :( wednesday's self declared holiday and i am gonna head to sentosa with girlfriends .

me cant wait :))))

2008-05-18T21:04:00.007+08:00

love the colour combination and it's tube dress perfect for singapore's weather

polka dots are always my favourite

white always look so angelic

love the colour combination againn

i started off with this big fat mess which i just threw everything down onto the floor :(

then i packed the top upper compartment.This time i decided to place my jeans, shorts and pants in the inner part then cardigans,long sleeves and tube tops and tank tops in the front . i concluded i need more cupboard space :(

then the second middle compartment was seperated into dresses,tunic tops and babydoll tops and the bottom last compartment was for tee shirts and blouses and towels . I concluded againn i need more cupboard space .

This is caroline's and May Yi's shared cupboard. I do have some clothes there also cause some of the clothes, i do share it with caroline . Caroline and i were discussing that day , which compartment are we gonna each take once May yi's married and her stuff will all be gone *grins*i cant wait really . So the plan's caroline is gonna take the top part and i the bottom part or alternatively,we divide the both compartments into two and i take the upper and bottom left and she the right .

and this is the last part of the shopaholic chan sister's cupboard , it's mainly May Yi's stuff and lots of tolietries. Thus caroline and I have decided that we are going to share it and place our dinner dresses*the more formal dresses and tolietries

edited ;

Church was good :) though i felt so drowsy after taking the coedin cough mixture .I came back home to nap after that :)i am waking up early in the morning tomorrow to jog at the new telok blangah park while the rents have their church region gathering .

and i realisedyour my sweetest hello yet hardest goodbye

blogger's timing screwed seriously. i updated at like 7pm but then they put the timing as new entry posted at 5.30pm :(rahhhh anyhows i packed my messy table and cupboard like finally. my table's half packed.

and yesterday i was looking through some spree websites :) i saw these few pretty dresses from Victoria's secrets , i am so gonna get them .

OH YA AND SGH FINALLY PAID US FOR THE LAST ATTACHMENT

2008-05-17T20:20:00.003+08:00

I spent my saturday very fruitfully :) i did alittle packing today and i am gonna continue packing later, i need more cupboard space seriously :( went for my facial appointment with momma love in the afternoon,dad gave us a lift down before he went home to nap . Today's session was good and i had a different facial therapist again, i think she's gentle with her clients and she's super nice. she thinks i am seventeen , and she refused to believe i am twenty one and she went to ask mom :( and i fell asleep after the application of the mask and according to mom, i kept making wierd noises :(( oh wells went to walk around with mom after that before we headed home.

To our surprise caroline chan may yin was still home when we reached home , she overslept and thus met wei jie late .HAHA see it runs in the genes*the little miss late genes *smirks*I continued uploading and sending the girls the peekchures and then went for dinner with the rents :) Today we decided to try the zi char restuarant below our house area, the food was good . We had crabs,vegetables and some tofu dish :) bumped into some relatives downstairs .

I keep forgetting Monday's a holiday :( i can forsee more packing to be done and i have planned my planner for the upcoming week. sentosa i cant wait on wednesday with girlfriends

rocking love for past 2 days :)

2008-05-17T18:10:00.010+08:00

haha that's about it i guess :) i love my girls and pardon the small sore eyes cause i had a cornea abrasion yesterday thus i took off my lenses my right eye was all red :(

2008-05-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

I had such a fufiling day , i feel like a happy kid :) and to make myself even happier, i didnt even but anything today :( i spent it all on food and more food that pretty much explains why the tum tum is growing bigger everyday, i feel like i am having fribriods as described by tini :))

i went to pizza hut with the school clique mates and keiffer came along :) had fun feasting and laughing and i finally know what does pepperroni taste like , and i actually thought it was like capsicum, which means it's a vegetable, but actually it's a kind of meat. needless to say, i ended up making everyone laugh at my sillyness =( sociology tutorial with Mr cleamus was very interesting today, talking about survival and leadership skills , i like :( and i think i am too loud and noisy in class =(( and after having pizza hut, we went seperate ways . We sent virginia off, then me and felina sent tini off to wisma before we walked around :) and then i went to collect my lenses , and i realised the optician is actually my neighbour :)))))) how small can the world get . I love the service offered by universal optical :) very efficient . I met my darling janet lie and babypie love shuyu after that :) we decided to just sit around at spins and we started taking random cute peekchures. I will upload them very soon .

and we are going sentosa soon in 2 weeks time :) i cant wait . i feel so fair again or rather i want to even out my tan .

Right now i need to catch up on my sleep before those eyebags come out , though they have yet to appear, thank God.

next week's only 2 days of school :) and clinical will only resume 1 week later . i love school .

and to whichever readers who dont like the way i type, please dont read then and go visit some other blog that writes well. I am fine with the way i do things. I dont need to please you do I .

2008-05-16T11:07:00.003+08:00

i went blog hopping yesterday night and i stumbled upon this long thought enticing entry :)

love is a decision. coz i decide to love that person. the only thing that isn't my decision is whether il get to meet the people i love. but i can choose not to love them and cause myself sorrow and pain.things may not work out in the end, but during the time it did, i chose to love the people i love. and il always love them because i choose to remember the happy times and no matter what they've become, i love them because at that point in my life they were in it and i chose to love them. i don't choose who i meet, so in a way, love will find me, but i can find love if i choose to love. just like when i was depressed, i chose not to love. it isn't easy to love, but when i chose to love, i found people who love me. so love is a decision. because u can always chose not to love even when someone loves u a lot

i think click's five kidnap my heart is awesome stuff :)

on a happier note :) i am going out with my amazing always loved school mates . we are going on a pizza feast cum treat for working harf for the past 3 horror weeks :) then i am going to meet my girls againn later on. how good canlife get , even though i dont have the one i love by my side :) i do get upset still when people ask me how's me and J but then i guess i am a little better at handling my emotions and feelings now but i still do miss him and think about him at times especially late at night and those late friday nights =( and today is one of those days again.i wish you happiness and safety everyday . your littlemissnurse loves you .

2008-05-15T23:50:00.003+08:00

I just read my email and guess what i received besides all the tution assignments :)

Nursing Lecturer Needed (URGENT)

To be teach on the following lesson
- Elderly 65+
- All disability
- Physical
- Hearing impairment
- Visual impairment
- Intellectual
- Autism

8 hours 1 Day Course (Sunday)
Base on schedule
Pay $200-$300

lol i didnt know there were such things seriously. so today i went out with momma love to chinatown and we spent heavenly mother daughter bonding time bitching about some stuff and then shopping around :) i love my mom though at times she can really piss me off . came back home and then i rested awhile before i went town to meet the girls :) i wasnt really feeling well then , like my stomach was churning , so i ate like just cheese fries for dinner then we walked around. i bought myself a new top from closet affair which i feel is alittle pricey =( and then a new shawl and a new specstacles and of course my replacement lenses which needs to be orded :) walked around a while more then i took the same bus home as pie and then took 195 home from commonnwealth :)

channel 55 drama serial makes me smile (:

and what's the world coming into. i see news and hear news of people passing away everyday =( and i cant help but worry about how it's in army for him =( me miss you luh

get well soon caroline chan may yin :) and eat more skinny monkey

2008-05-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

Today was clinical assessment part two :) and we were tested on either OT scrubbing, eye dressing or Conscious level chart but most of us got OT scrubbing and i am very happy to say that NR0627 has been doing Miss Joan proud so far , thus she wont get so stressed up i hope :) i love my class, the bond that's present everyday makes me happy, we wish each other good luck before major exams by texting each other, giving each other huggs . i love you girls deep deep <3

so i got OT scrubbing :) and i had a very nice lecturer cause as usual i got all nervous and then i panicked, she calmed me down and prompted me now and then :) anyhows it was goood, but i know i owe it all to the prayer i made right before i started scrubbing .Lectures have been very boring lately seriously, i can fall asleep for like one whole hour . anyhows tomorrow is only one pathetic hour of lecture, thus a number of us are gonna self declare "no lesson day "

I hope for tomorrow's batch of girls and melvin taking the exam (: they will clear it with flying colours :))

might be meeting the girls at night (: we will see now

friday's gonna be a short day again with like 4 hours of break =(( then pizza hut with the school mates before meeting the girls in the evening . i need retail therapy but i am determined to save :)

2008-05-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

i am starting to feel the tension now =( i detest year 3. everyday is like so packed and we end school so late and by the time i get home, i end up being all tired, how to start mugging like that and tomorrow we end at 7.30pm earliest cause miss joan wants to meet us and school starts freaking early tomorrow and ends superlate *irony.

wedneday's second practical assessment. i hope i get nice understanding assessors.

okays quit whining .

2008-05-12T14:17:00.002+08:00

its monday :) i am in computer lab now , boring day in school, by right i have only 4 lessons =( sighhhs but school ends at 5pm . i have been eating alot these days even though i am sick =( of course luh i have friends everyday who feed me =( which explains the fact i am growing fatty fat fat.

today during tutorial :) i did up my 21st birthday bash invitation list. i am so so excited and may yi's ROM is in july :))))))))

i am bored very bored.

2008-05-11T20:43:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMMYS OUT THERE IN A WAY OR ANOTHER :)

church service this morning was goood :) the pastor's wifes shared, mainly pastor chia's wife, pastor jack theva's wife and pastor chng's wife :) thus preaching was good and the presentation items by the youth and kids was wonderful, kids never fail to amaze me with their innocence to think years ago, i performed for my mum just like them singing infront of a room packed auditorium .

after church service :) the family headed off to town area. went orchard hotel's hua tiong restaurant to commemorate mother's day :) goood foood with good service ,abit pricey though , after that came home :)

tomorrow early to school to run :) i feel fatty fat fat =(( and i pray nothing will happen cause i am on 4 different types of medication .

i love my mum though she often nags at me till the cows come home but i guess all mums are like that :))

2008-05-10T21:03:00.003+08:00

its the saturday weekend =)i woke up at 12pm this morning after much commotion in the household as usual. i felt so much better and my eyes were not red anymore. i made a visit down to the doctor this morning, cause momma wanted me to get cough syrup since the house doesnt have any anymore, and guess what DR Hiak prescribed along, ventolin and medical professionals should know that ventolin is for asthma and SOB luh.oh wells he's scared i will have another episode of what happened 2 years ago, bronchitis, oh wells where i spent close to two hundred on two doctors in a month :( but of course all these are paid through my Dad's company benefits.

i realise coedin seriously makes me drowsy=( hate it whenever i take that and i will be off to dreamland in no time and then i wont be able to get any work done. i am off to mugg soon since tomorrow will prolly be a busy day :)

its Mother's day tomorrow and we are heading to orchard hotel's hua ting resturant recommended by may yi to commemorate and celebrate :) time to grow fat again and then at night its dinner somewhere else againn.

monday (: head to school early to run again :)

its been a week and it seems to pass by so fast and soon it will be august soon. Dear God, please bless me with my birthday wish.

2008-05-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

i went school today despite the fact that it was only an hour lecture =) and i even arrived on time and had time to go purchase my evian mineral water .Afterwhich felina and i decided to head down causewaypoint for macdonalds and some reading activity. I had yummmy very yummy and addictive mcgriddles =))))) then we walked around for a little while before we train back main town area. i alighted at dhoby to meet childhoodbesttie and then we were on our way to walking to NAFA when we called mich, so plans changed,headed to BK at plaza sing to eat againn =) then we walked to NAFA. the exhibition was very goood , the students there are really talented . i was seriously amazed. walked around and then accompained melly to have her very late lunch =)

today was such a enjoyable day =) i laughed so much . its been such a long long time . melissa, chilhoodbesttie and i left the place around 6.30pm, i made my way down to Bukit panjang to meet the friday homies plus daniel's cell group cause today we had combined cell. it was an enjoyable experience though. Hadley's little brother damien is as cute as ever =))))))) after cell, we trained back, and then i had a talk with bryan.funny chap =)

i am gonna sleep soon.
my eyes are red againn
lack of sleep =(

i am still missing you. i used to look forward till the weekends but not anymore =(

2008-05-08T23:41:00.004+08:00

i met girlfriend love rachel and babypie shuyu after school :) for clinical lab lesson today we had stimulated base lab learning , interesting as usual =))) i had porridge for dinner cause my throat was killing me , and it hurts so much even swallowing. i had 8 lozenges in a day plus 2 cold tablet rahhhhhhhhh and tons of strepsils and so much water i keep visiting the restroom.HAHA

girlfriend michelle's grad show tomorrow before i head to meet friday homies for cell =)

peekchures do the talking. i am starting to love my hair =)

and miss Janet adeline lie, we missed you today . get well soon babe

and i am still missing you always

2008-05-08T14:56:00.001+08:00

hey people =))) i finally changed my font already, its verdana now. please tell me if its easier to read now.

much love <3

2008-05-07T22:20:00.007+08:00

and guess what i am 3/4 done with HS 3054 clinical laboratory module already :) and its only week 4. clinical theory test today was goood but i have to admit this time round it was just pure luck i felt, cause seriously we didnt mugg that hard compared to all the previous theory papers :)))

there's so much to do everyday , i can hardly take a rest =( i shall head off to sleep earlier today and then wake up to run tomorrow morning.

michelle's and melissa's 21st birthday bash at dempsey's PS cafe was interesting and i met my friends :))))))) the journey there was horrible though, we actually got lost at dempseys but thank God i had my dearest patient childhoodbesttie with me and she's like the best cause i kept whining yesterday cause i hate being left alone on a dark road =(( thanks childhoodbesttie i love you. came back around 11.30pm, washed up and attemped to mugg alittle but my eyes wouldnt listen so i went to bed and woke up at 7am this morning to mugg.clinical lesson was spent mugging cause the lecturers left us alone and then more mugging for the rest of the day =( super stressful really and i had a haircut yesterday with darling :) is defintely neater now but i really miss my long bushy messy hair =(

meeting my girls tomorrow =)

to end off, here's my favourite quote from 'The Alchemist'."
Because I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested in only the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. You'll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens, and that tribesmen fight because they are part of the human race. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now

inscribed with love ;

2008-05-06T14:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST TWINS :)

I LOVE YOU TWO DEEP DEEP DEEP DEEP

COUNTING ON 7 YEARS AND 4 MONTHS OF LOVE <3

Gonna head over to dempseys laters to celebrate michelle's and melissa's 21st birthday bash :) time seriously flies. As i was writing down the birthday cards yesterday, images of how silly we were during secondary school and how much fun we had everyday in school , eating during lessons, getting caught for ankle socks, going for OBS together, going for China overseas exchange programme, movie marathons, shopping trips, skipping band practices,getting caught for disobeying school rules and authority, calling each other almost everyday so much that our whole household knows our number. those were the good old days. we used to count every single year we had of our friendship. years ago, it was just four years plus, now its seven years and counting every single day . I love every single moment of meeting the two silly girlfriends.

i love you two for bringing all those smiles :) and even when i was down, you two were there though not physically

truckloadslorryloadsoflove<3

2008-05-05T21:18:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIMBOTIC SECOND SISTER CAROLINE CHAN MAY YIN

YOUR LITTLE SISTER LOVES YOU DEEP DEEP <3

on a happier note :)) i passed my clinical assessment part 1 already which was gloving and gowning. Miss Joan was super nice really and the butterflies in my tummy was whoa and the whole day in school i was pmsing so badly =( sorry clique and germs.

and so our whole class passed gowning and gloving and i practiced on surgical scrubbing today plus eye dressing =) later got to continue mugging for theory paper and the next assessment is on next wedneday *thank God :)) and presentation was goood and miss tong commented that i have a loud and clear voice and she made me teach the class on intracranial tumours okays. i was like reading so many slides out =(

my bimbotic room mate was very nice :) she kept asking if i was alright cause she knew what happened thus the cause of the mood swings and she bought me sushi to cheer me up and of course my darlings too luh :)

and after school i did something silly that i cant stop laughing but i doubt i will ever do it again. i accompained maureen home by taking the same route with her all the way till eunos and then i trained home =) the journey was horrible of course , peak hour in addition to the fact that i was holding my new lamont medical surgical nursing yellow pages thick textbook =(((

i am gonna take my basic theory test soon before i turn 21 :)

a simple good luck msg got me thinking yet again

are dreams real or opposite of reality, someone please enlighten the dear nurse here.

hiatus againn (: time to mugg mugg

happy early 21st michelle and melissa loh :))

your girlfriend here loves you two very much <3

2008-05-04T00:56:00.001+08:00

the nurse is going on a hiatus

till further notice :)

2008-05-04T00:02:00.004+08:00

after a whole afternoon of thinking and pondering and lots of advice from friends, i finally got what they are telling me into my head after months =( anyhows i met childhoodbesttie in the evening and i overslept AGAIN . when i woke up, i had 8 missed calls .anyhows i mugged in the afternoon and then continued mugging at starnucks just now :) thanks childhoodbesttie for the company. i love the starbucks at vivocity hidden corner ,so not crowded and very condusive. i found a new study outlet i had a good laugh with childhoodbesttie love just now cause we experienced a very funny scene

we were at page one looking for something when we saw this little boy running towards our way shouting "mas selamat"mas selamat continously and his dad was just beside him feeling super embarassed. me and childhoodbesttie couldnt help laughing and giving ourselves the classic look .kids these days.

i have very cute neighbours. i saw little natasha and her little brother at their grandfather's wake which is going on below my house void deck. momma says we are going down on monday evening. oh great, another event to attend on monday =(

i am finally done with surgical scrubbing and now i am left with CLC and eye dressing for practical assessment practice.

i am skipping service tomorrow and church tomorrow cause i am really running out of time and i have to prepare for presentation cum many tests next week =(

i am fighting a war against nursing now =(

and it's so many people's birthday next week and its mother's day next week too
wish me luck
i wish i can break myself into pieces.